Ill Zebra’s Transformations

Speaking to Heal.

The dominating themes are female sexuality and the dogmas around it, the inherited burdens of womanhood, the transition of victimhood into feminine power, traumas trapped in the physical body, healing thereof, as well as intuition, spirituality, and channeling of messages through art. In this first episode, I explain my intent for starting this podcast, how I plan to develop it, and what to expect and what not to expect. I also share some of my vulnerabilities and a memory that made me feel conflicted and will, therefore, always stay with me as long as I live. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

The Waitress

This episode features a zoomed-in moment in the life of the main character (me). Her outer shell is a woman who is working as a waitress. Yet, more than one person is talking in her head making her confused. She doesn't feel that she fits in her current environment and wonders what has happened to bring her down to the point she is at. This sets up the stage for revealing some episodes from her past so that the stories of transformation can be revealed in the upcoming episodes. The dominating themes are the inherited burdens of womanhood and the transition of victimhood into feminine power. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Voices in My Head

There are people, animals, and abstract beings named as feelings talking in my head. I used to think that people who had voices in their heads were not "normal". I labeled them in my mind. To feel "normal", I denied that I also had voices in my head. I needed to come across a recognized source to change my opinion and start listening to what was going on in my head. It's rather fascinating, especially for me as an artist. I see it in colors now. I hope you'll enjoy this episode and feel better about yourself after listening to it. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Telephone Calls and Skinny-Dipping

This is a mosaic of memory pieces from the times of a younger Ilze Be in Latvia. Memory mix of pleasant and painful experiences begin to explain how from a business owner she ended up working as a waitress at an American restaurant. This is the question that so many customers whom she served asked her. If you are one of them, here you have it. 

The Validity of Guilt, the Soul of a Dog & the Waterfall with no Water

This episode is about packing and unpacking some emotional baggage in the soup of stories spiced with love and frustration. In the previous episodes, you learned a little about my two husbands and my dogs. Each episode is a follow-up to the previous ones. Therefore, it's better to listen to them in their numerological order. 

Frost, Two Lauras & a Bunch of Titties

In this episode, I pick up from where I left it, introduce new characters, real and imaginative, and conclude by having made a full circle. Expect some self-reflective irony and a promise of the light at the end of a tunnel. If you feel compelled to get me to visit you in your inbox, the link to subscribe is here: Subscribe to my e-mails!

The Stare I Felt, Her Silence, & She Who Wears Her Heart on Her Sleeve

When is it right and when is it wrong to say something? She who speaks boldly and she who hides the truth behind her humor. And what should I do: speak or keep silent forever?  As always, to learn more about me, visit ilzebe.com

The Half-Life Celebration and the Guarantee of Nightmares

How can one celebrate their half-life mark? One can if one chooses to, or if one follows the signs from the Universe. I did. My vision of how it would happen didn't get fulfilled, but what did happen was worth it. Tune in to learn why. 

From Hushpuppies and Tesla's Code to Stockholm Syndrome

Before I moved to the US, I thought that my English was good. Afterwards, I realized it was not good enough. I had to catch up. In this episode, you'll learn what words and terminology I had to learn, about magic numbers, and my conversation with the Universe.  

Beast Who Smells Like Winter, Letting Go & Energy Budget

Do you know what abuse smells like and what its aftertaste is like? Can you imagine living in the skin of an ill zebra who gets chased by a cackle of hyenas? I believe I can live in the brain of Lauma, and see through her eyes. She is the creation of Linda Arāja, and after this episode, somewhat also mine. Can I live in the brain of a beast? Probably not, but I can spot them better now. Yet, ultra vigilance may turn into paranoia. Be careful. Healing means softening and letting go. Let go.